Act
of Resignation to the Divine Will
O Lord my God, I now at this moment, readily and willingly accept at Thy hand whatever kind of death it may please Thee to send me, with all its pains, penalties and sorrows.
O Lord my God, I now at this moment, readily and willingly accept at Thy hand whatever kind of death it may please Thee to send me, with all its pains, penalties and sorrows.
Something
of a revelation:
The
first time I read this prayer was in the mid-1980’s when I first began attending
the Tridentine Mass. The prayer impressed
me very much. I was young and always had
a fear of death.
Just
this night, I paused before the Crucifix.
This prayer came to me and with it the realization that Our Lord sends
many types of death. Yes, we all die, of
course, but He desires that we die to ourselves so that He may live in us. Obvious, I know, but …. all this time, this
prayer has been about accepting physical death, in whatever way He
desires. It is now so much more, which
is the death and dying which I have resisted for so long. I have not truly died to self, to sin. Having now some experience with near-death, I
can say that dying to oneself is so much more difficult. So many pains, penalties, and sorrows!